I just wanna deserve it

I often feel this way..and in all sincerity I rarely feel I deserve anything..the word Deserve to me is something for someone else.  I fumble around the idea of being that special someone who commands the favor of others.
I become angry ..at myself for being disappointed in anyone ..because well it assumes they owed me something in the first place.
Don't get me wrong, I am no wall flower, I will defend my rights like someone who believes they are gold..and yet..inside I am conflicted..because I can't forget about you..what makes anything or anyone more deserving?
I do believe you ..that you are worthy of that which you earn. That you are the Artist, The poet the Writer ..the person..that person that deserves ..I do believe in you.
you are worthy..It's not that I want to be a famous artist or writer or just a good friend,I simply want to feel like I deserve it. I want to feel like someone other than a poor impression of something.. I want to believe it when you believe in me..